Needing to share

2021.09.25 21:25 terad Needing to share

My grandmother died and I don’t know if she remembered me anymore. Her dementia was moderately advanced the last I saw her, when she went in and out of thinking I was her daughter and her granddaughter. Days like today I just wail because I can’t change the story and it’s like I’m remembering she died for the first time all over again. I had to help order the death certificate because my mother could not figure out how. By law, they allowed me to order it and obtain copies, some solace in the fact that while she was dying I had no say so in her care. I read the certificate, where it broke down her cause of death generally, then by hours and then by the minute. So I imagine her in the room I grew up staying with her in, wondering if she was awake or if she knew where she was and I couldn’t see her. I have to imagine the minutes that are broken down by the death certificate and I feel shame and guilt that I wasn’t there.
My last memory of her was the month before she died. She had been in the hospital and wanted chocolate. I went downstairs to get her Twix, Hershey’s, and Reese’s. She picked the Twix, then said she wanted a “real” coke. So I went back down to the cafeteria to get her one. I ate the Reese’s while she ate Twix. I remember she took a bite and just smiled at me, she was so happy, just sharing candy while we watched TV. I left and then never saw her again.
It shocks me, how hard it hits me. The loneliness of every single memory is a lot, because my family is not great at listening. I just needed to come here and say I’m very sad today.
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2021.09.25 21:25 CADQC Recommendation 38" 120hz UW

I never owned an ultrawide and i've been using a 2560x1440 144hz as my main monitor (TN panel), i wanna upgrade to an ultrawide to replace 2 screens (planning to split the screen into 3 zones almost all the time except when watching movies).
I'm planning to play games only in the center portion of the screen while having other things on the sides of the screen if that's possible without having the windows bar at the bottom.
Since i will be gaming a little bit i would want at least a 120hz monitor and good color and contrast is also something that i want. Bonus points if the screen isn't white at the back.
My budget is below 1200$, which would be good options for me? I would rather spend less if it's possible to get good value.
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2021.09.25 21:25 aachtung361 Türkiye’de üniversite / yüksek lisans / doktora OKUMAK.

Türkiye’de eğitim almak ya da eğitim alarak bir yere gelmek konusuna artık herkes , her mecra karanlık bir tablo çiziyor . Ben de bu sene üniveriste sınavına hazırlanacağım ama bu ülkenin gündemine maruz kaldıkça olmayan motivasyonumunda kaybolup gittiğini görüyorum . Bazen bazı şeyler düşünerek kendimi avutuyorum ama aklım hep bunlarda . Siz bu durum hakkında ne düşünüyorsunuz ?
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2021.09.25 21:25 decomposedapple114 First Lego set I’ve built after getting back into Lego was a lot of fun to build

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2021.09.25 21:25 jamlennon it's 3am and the bag of chips i was trying to open quietly just exploded >:(

now im tempted to eat chips off the floor😭
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2021.09.25 21:25 moralinfection I just want my life back

it has been 2 years, NC for almost a year and I feel in many ways that I am doing a lot better. I wear dresses again, and I don't hate myself anymore. However, I have to see his stupid self in the newspaper (because he is a huge pillar of the community) and I see him when I leave my house and even the neighbors praise him. I usually can handle it but not today, I want to run him over with my car or press charges for sexual abuse. I just want to feel the way I did before I met him... I want my life back.
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2021.09.25 21:25 AutoNewspaperAdmin [AU] - Mandatory jabs for students considered under return-to-campus plan | Sydney Morning Herald

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2021.09.25 21:25 bigdickedthrowaway I'm (M21) a fully transitioned transgender man, AMA

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2021.09.25 21:25 AutoNewspaperAdmin [AU] - Ministers eye 90 per cent vaccination coverage to lift restrictions on unjabbed | Sydney Morning Herald

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2021.09.25 21:25 TheMixerTheMaster Dan Auerbach - Whispered Words (Pretty Lies) [Blues Rock/Garage Rock/Neo-Psychedelia]

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2021.09.25 21:25 falseflats Rochester Broadcast

Wow, this is bad. Not only terrible technical issues, but the cameras, when on, not following the action. We really need to step up our game in the U.S.
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2021.09.25 21:25 Pretend_Strategy7698 Remote work from Canada

Are there U.S. companies hiring Canadians that work remotely? I am interested in the field of accounting or bookkeeping. Does anyone heard of this?
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2021.09.25 21:25 yupyupyup_1 Is General Anesthesia Necessary for this?

31F, 5'9", 160 lb., white.
Looking for other professional, medical advice here.
Primary complaint: I have a large lipoma that needs to be removed from my lower back (3.7cm x 4cm x 1cm); it's causing serious pain down my leg and around the mass. There's a second small one on the other side that will be removed.
Question: How necessary is it to go under General Anesthesia? I woke up during General Anesthesia while having my wisdom teeth out and it was awful.
I would rather be awake.
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2021.09.25 21:25 oboejdub Quintet for Piano and Winds, Mozart, Untitled Virtual Ensemble

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2021.09.25 21:25 Labonydog Whats with the Fate Route remake? Does the real nuata ver is the remake one?

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2021.09.25 21:25 moonlitrm Tomarry and the debacle of being unfinished

Y’all. I’m losing it. tl:dr at bottom
While I’m mostly a snarry and drarry enthusiast, every once in a while the urge to read harry/tom-voldemort comes up and I happily head over to ao3 to do a deep search… except that trying to search through completed fics for something worthwhile is a huge headache, and every single other fic that catches my eye is UNFINISHED!! Seriously, what is it with tomarry fics and being unfinished?! 😭 I’m both a binge reader and very quick reader (but stories stick with me forever so I truly appreciate them and the hard work of the authors that gift them to us) but that leaves me in the predicament of wanting to only read completed fics. I remember I made the mistake of starting one a year or two ago that was around 150k. It was amazing and I blew through it… only to see that it was first started in like 2017 and it’s last update was 3 months before I first started reading cries
So, tl:dr — please rec me COMPLETED tomarry fics. I prefer fics where Harry doesn’t suddenly become a truly dark and twisted okay-with-murder sort of person. I do love moral ambiguity though, and a somewhat sane tom/voldemort is ideal. I don’t mind dumbledore or light side bashing and I’m kind of a sucker for redemption. My only other request is no mcd (in regards to harry and voldemort). Really and truly, I just want something long and vaguely in character or at least maybe believable in terms of canon. If anyone has read To Touch the Sky, that’s one that hit nearly every mark in the box…except for well, That™. iykyk.
Please help a girl out 😔
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2021.09.25 21:25 Anybody-Helpful Bro

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2021.09.25 21:25 needadviceonwork Work place politics, or serious concern?: Manager from another department has indicated to their subordinates that they should only communicate with me (also a Manager) via my subordinate.

Our departments work together on completing certain company projects, but formal reporting structures are independent of each other. My department provides subject matter expertise in order to develop deliverables that the other department is ultimately responsible for executing on.
With the increasing work loads each of our departments has seen, there has been a direction to hire additional staff dedicated to each department. The objective is to decouple work between the two departments and each would focus on their own responsibilities. The existing relationship worked in the past, but increasingly it has been difficult to align schedules and resources to complete given deliverables and to support execution. It led to escalating tension resulting in high intensity arguments, but nothing that would be considered extraordinary for a white-collar work environment.
Recently I was able to secure a new hire, and that person has just been onboarded. This person was hired under the premise they would be focused on work tasks in our department. While there is overlap in skills required to do the work required for the other department, it is far more specialized and would not be appropriate to assign them total responsibility given their skill set. The going plan was that there would be a transition phase as the other department onboards their new hires.
What has caught me off guard was that a key manager in the other department has indicated to their direct reports to address all communication on transition projects to my direct report, avoiding CC'ing me. This isn't a misinterpretation, this is what I was told by a colleague in that department who thought this was an unproductive arrangement (which I agreed with). The subordinate I hired is too junior to be doing my role and has not been familiarized with the projects relating to the other department.
While the other department will soon be hiring to fill the role I held in fulfilling their project deliverables, I am not concerned that I would be made redundant since that role doesn't overlap with the base responsibilities I have with my department.
I am trying to figure out how to proceed from here. I have indicated to my direct report to forward any emails regarding the projects in question to me in order to take action on. I spoke to my boss (same level as the other manager's boss) who was also surprised by this development, and suggested it wasn't worth thinking too deeply about, but that we would try to discuss/understand more at our next 1-on-1. While I do think he is well meaning, he has been extremely busy and isn't able to give full attention to issues.
Again, the new hire was onboarded very recently and I didn't have any indication that something could be going on in the background.

TL;DR - Manager from another department has indicated to their subordinates to avoid direct communication with me and to go through my subordinate. How should I proceed from here?
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2021.09.25 21:25 Art0212 Plutonium line ready!

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2021.09.25 21:25 Nythera_ Does mechanical keyboards help you to improve in taiko, specially when playing high bpm maps?

the title speaks for itself.
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2021.09.25 21:25 plasmex81 Fintel Short Data on Merger Day 9/15

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2021.09.25 21:25 snowlord8 The stunning winners of Drag Race Holland.

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2021.09.25 21:25 Cugu00 Made some Vex themed “Quantum” Subclasses

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2021.09.25 21:25 yaiyen HSBC Bet the Bank on China, Now It's Paying the Price | naked capitalism

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